A Broken Promise

So I've recently made a mistake. Broke a promise. The kind of pain that eats away at one's heart when they make such a mistake as this is very painful. I can literally feel it eating away at my heart, mind and soul. The only thing I can think of is admitting to the person/s that I made this promise to and tell them the I've broken it. One thing that I used to pride myself on is following instructions and doing what I was told. Normally, I ask no questions, I just do it. And maybe it was from increased stress, and being completely overwhelmed that I decided to rebel. The sad thing is, I wasn't rebelling against the person/s I made the promise to. I was rebelling against a certain member/s of my family. To not be under his thumb anymore. To be my own person and make my own decisions and mistakes...to learn from them. But this mistake...is too intense. Too much to take on. I too hard to admit. I asked what should I do about my overwhelming amount of stress and someone told me to relax and breathe. Maybe the consequences wont be what I fear. I just need to relax for now. So think of me in your prayers. Give me the strength for patience and relaxation. Thanks!

Crying over Spilt Milk

The saying, "No use crying over spilt milk" made somewhat of an impression on me. Originally, I thought, well stuff happens and there's no use crying or getting angry at the the situation. Suck it up and keep going. Recently, I was in a "relationship" of sorts and it came to an end. I knew that there was something that was missing when I couldn't bring myself to cry even a little bit. I was upset don't get me wrong but crying was not what I wanted to do. I've watched the sobbing of other girls and I didn't want to be one of them. Coping method? Ahh...I'd love for it to be a relationship that I share simultaneously with two men; a Mr. Ben and a Mr. Jerry, however it is not. I'm coping by sharing this with you, sorry! LOL

David's Sunflower Seeds

Uh...so I was at walmart the other day and found a huge bag of David Sunflower Seeds for a dollar. At first I wondered who would buy that huge bag? Then realized...Me...I would...and here's my motivation:

I love old people. The stories they tell. The experiences they've had...and lets face it I'll be one one day. However, we need to seriously consider limitations. I.E. DRIVING! That's the major problem. I mean let's face it a lot of accidents are due to elderly drivers. I was almost in one. If I had not been paying attention I would have been forced off the bridge and flipped over.

So now you're wondering, where did the sunflower seeds come in? Uh...I've been eating them instead of yelling at the dumb drivers who happen to continously be elder drivers. Should we set an age limit on drivers? Or should they have a test that they take at a certain age to determine if they should/could drive?